thank you for your response. The desire for inclusion is real but full transition especially at my age is probably not achievable, too many years of male socialization to unpack. No matter that I am perceived to be a woman as soon as I open my mouth guys talk to me like a guy and women talk to me in a more neutral tone. Apparently looking like a woman is not enough. Living the life of a visible trans woman was the objective to further the cause of social acceptance of the trans identity it is not helping my emotional part of my transition.